Geheimnis Nr. 4: In my dark moments I still want to give up. Just staying in bed seems so easy.

Isn't it weird that I still miss my boyfriend?
I mean he's been back for more than two months now. But somehow the person that came back is completely different from what he was like. As if the original simply died and all I got was a cheap replacement. So every now and then I just randomly start crying because I miss him so much that it hurts and I know it will never be the same again. Is this what falling out of love feels like?