Secret Nr. 5: I always think that I am not enough. That's why I have a hard time not taking things personal or accepting criticism

You know how people say money can't buy happiness? Well, I've been worrying for two weeks now, how I am going to survive this month without starving or becoming homeless since I can't afford next month's rent.
Today I checked my bank account and realized that my grandma decided to randomly bestow me money for my studying. It sure as hell did not make me unhappy